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stay soft

Chloe Gordon

I’ve noticed something.


As people get older and older, it seems they also get harder and harder. They lose sense of their softer selves. They put a guard up. They become rough around the edges and in the middle. And for what reason? Because they’ve been hurt, maybe? Because they think life is out to get them? Or maybe it’s because they’ve seen other people become harder and they thing that they too must become hard. 

I challenge you to become softer. Become full of life instead of letting it leave you. Let inspiration fill you to the brims, and allow your cheeks to hurt and become permanently flushed from so many smiles. 


My mom had my horoscope read when I was born and it said that I will age backwards. And, so far, it is true. I was the most wise ten year old you’ll ever meet. I was a rule follower. A people pleaser. A bookworm. All in the fourth grade. 

I’m not saying I’m none of those things now, as an almost adult, but I don’t think I’ve become harder. I’ve chilled out. I have fun. I enjoy the time I’ve been given. I hope that I continue to. I hope I become even softer. I hope I can give the warmest hugs and the happiest smiles. I hope you don’t barf from the cheesiness of this post. 

Anyways, I hope you accept my challenge. Be a warm human. Be a soft human. 

everything is going to be ok

Chloe Gordon

Life works in funny ways. 

I read this quote today that said, “Life keeps leading us on journeys we would never go on if it were up to us. Don’t be afraid. Have faith. Find the lessons.”

I haven’t posted in a while because, I think, I was in search of the lessons. I wouldn’t say that I was sad the last few weeks and months of my college career, but I was definitely lost and confused. Mostly, I was confused about where I was going and who I was, as hard as that is to admit. 

I was most afraid of the unknown, and because of that, I was shutting down. In hindsight, everything has worked out, and I cry tears of happiness as I’m driving to work in the morning, but I didn’t know that I would be at this point a few weeks ago. 

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But I’m here. Full joy for life and all the things in it at the moment. Somehow, someway, I’m interning at my DREAM (literal dream) advertising agency. Just going to work in the morning is the best. Going to sleep truly excited for the next day is the best feeling ever. 

I also have amazing friends in my life that I’m so thankful for. They’re the kind of people that I know I can go to with anything… both the good and the bad and they’ll be there. My boyfriend is one of my closest friends for all of those reasons. You know that feeling when you’re so thankful for the things that someone does for you that you don’t even know how to describe them? Yeah, that’s how I feel about him. 

Idk, life is just really doing good things for me right now. And even though I was afraid of the future before, I think I’ve finally relaxed and have realized that things are going to work out and everything is going to be ok. Truly. 



thanks for reading
chloe

being alone vs. feeling lonely

Chloe Gordon

Being alone versus being lonely. A concept that I haven’t learned to deal with quite yet. It’s one of those things that isn’t taught, it’s most definitely learned. 


Today I was alone and very much lonely. Why? Because it’s summer and I want to be doing exciting things with people who bring me joy and laughter. Instead, I was feeling sorry for myself that I wasn’t doing those things and that I spent the entire day by myself. I read on my porch, I went for a run (although it was mostly a walk because I’m so out of shape), I meal prepped for the week, I called my parents, etc. 

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But why do we often feel lonely when we are alone? Am I the only one who feels lonely when they’re alone?  I wish I had the answers. I wish that I was ok with alone time. But to be quite honest, I’d rather be surrounded by people. I guess this makes me an extrovert in that I gain energy from being around people. I feel refreshed and energized and full of life when I’m around other people. Even when I’m just around one other person. 

So while I was lonely today, I learned something about myself. I learned that sometimes it’s ok to be alone. Sometimes it’s ok to feel lonely, but it’s not ok to spiral into this zone of uncomfortableness when the only person I have to talk to is myself.   So from here on out, I’m challenging myself to rethink what being alone means. It’s doesn’t automatically make me a lonely person. It can make me feel independent and allow me to get to know who I truly am more easily. It can be thrilling. It can be fun. It can be fulfilling. Simply being alone doesn’t have to be a negative thing.

Here’s to a summer of looking at previously negatively associated things a little bit more positively. 

thanks for reading
xox
chloe