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Just Be

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A few semesters ago I had a guest speaker in one of my huge lecture classes. It seemed like most of the time the guest speakers for this class (an intro level class for my major) all had the same advice. “Do what you love, and you won’t work a day in your life.” Or even, “I just got lucky and that’s how I ended up in this dope kick ass executive position.” But this specific guest speaker told us the cold hard truth: "making it big in the creative world is fucking hard" You have to work hard to make it big, and honestly, who are you trying to make it big for?

I loved his brutal honesty, lack of sugar coating, and true “grin and bear it” attitude. When he said his favorite book was The Fountainhead by Ayn Rand I knew I had to read it. I put it off for like six semesters until now, but I finally started it. And you know what? I wish I had started earlier, not only because it’s really long and who knows when I’ll finish it, but also because it’s really inspirational. I’m only like 20 pages in ( (call me a fake fan, I dare you)  but so far it has a lot of quotable lines. I think the one line that I like the most is when the main character talks about who will stop him from doing his creative thing and asks his professor why he can't create new and innovative things.

So often I think we are motivated to accomplish certain things by certain times based on what certain people think. It’s sometimes very hard to pave your own path, but when you do it’s very rewarding (not that I really know because I have yet do actually do so). 

So anyways, as the real world is starting to creep closer and closer, I decided to promise to myself to pave my own path. To do creative things for myself only. To do things I want to do, for myself only. To just be, without the approval needed from anyone else. 

And with that promise, the other day I went on a little picnic with one of my littles from the sorority and we captured a few pretty pictures along the way.

Summer Goal

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This is the first summer that I’ve been away from my family. The first time that I’ve felt like a “real adult.” Where meals aren’t ready for me after work, where if my friends are busy or working or with other friends then I have to entertain myself. Where my parents aren’t telling me to make my bed, take out the trash, or stop being lazy. 

And you know what? It’s made me miss my childhood. I thought this summer would be the most magical summer of my life. I thought the freedom would be glorifying. That the lack of structure and rules and chores would be literal heaven. But, if we’re being honest here, I miss my mom nagging me about getting all my chores done. I miss my dad making annoying jokes to the waitress about how much he hated his meal even though he basically licked the plate clean. I even miss arguing about who gets the car with my brother. 

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Growing up is hard. It’s exciting, and thrilling, and super fun, but it’s also a lot of change. Change is hard, change is weird, but it’s also super necessary. Sure, I have one more year of college left (thank goodness) but for some reason I can’t stop thinking about what my life is going to be like after college. Where will I live? Where will I work? Will I live alone? With roommates? In a city? Will I be happy? It’s a lot to think about. 

Long story short, while this summer is only just starting, I feel like I’ve learned a lot. I’m learning to be happy spending time alone. I’m learning to look at the positive, especially when it’s the hardest. I’m leaning how to entertain myself. I’m learning how to be alone with my thoughts (something I’m not good at doing). I’m learning a lot about myself. So while this summer is the first summer without my family, it doesn’t mean I can’t enjoy it like I always have in the past. 

So here’s to making this summer amazing, even though I’m a “real adult.” My summer goal is to make the most of every moment, even if that moment is just enjoying sitting on my porch or couch doing nothing at all.

My Gals

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I can’t put my finger on the reason why, but lately my friends and I have been very sentimental. I think as our junior year of college is winding down and we’re gearing up for senior year, we realize how fast our time together has flown by. 

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We all met through college, none of us knew each other before and I think that’s one of the reasons why we truly treasure our friendships with each other. My friend group is small, strong, and very familial. We treat each other like sisters. We love each other endlessly, we bicker often, and we ALWAYS have each other’s backs. 

I was talking with one of my best friends the other day about how much we love our friend group. We were saying how, since we all live together, we’ve come to be more than friends. We’re family. And I know that sounds extremely cheesy, but there’s something special about living in a house with five of your best friends. You learn more about yourself than you ever thought possible, and therefore learn about each other, so much so that we might know each other better than we know ourselves. 

It’s a weird dynamic. I love my friends more than I think possible. We each have our strengths, our weaknesses, and our priorities, but somehow we mesh flawlessly (even on the days we all seem to be fighting). There are the ones of us who chat about anything, always. There are the ones of us that are the silent glue that keep the peace between us. There are the ones of us that can always light up the room when others are down. We’re just, well, us. 

I know I have another year with these gals, but honestly, I want more. The first three years of college have flown by, and I can’t even imagine how fast this next year is going to go. 

Here’s the best friends. Here’s to college memories. Here’s to the future.